The journalists summary:Gumball Machine

Eating gumballs of course can be a taste of nostalgia. Pulling the quarter from the wallet or pocket and putting it in the gumball coin slot brings back memories of a different life.

The man who believes in you and the sister who adores you. All the candy stores in the world and the choices lighting up with caramel or pineapple.   Who could stop you?  The taste years ago of gumballs from entertainment centers.

Banana,cherry,the white.gumball, and the blue gumball.  Food Festival a grocery.store across.the street.had.a.gumball full of.em vherry.  I used to ride my.bike there put a.quarter in ,turn the knob and hope for one.to get.stuck so two would come.down to the small metal trapshoot and into my.hand.

I wasnt eight.years old or.even waist.high anymore.and.I wondered.if.those.were.the.criteria to get.a.gumball.  maybe I was still 14 I
Or 12 at heart.  Why bother with.a gum.ball.

At my age 36
Shiny red tangyg


   And.sweet,
36?

Big Words as Small Offerings

Redemption, Deliverance, and other large words too big for me.  These mountain words are used for book titles, or movie titles, and sermons.  The depth and clarity of these gargantuan words can bring any man to exhaustion.  Yet they are only a small offering compared to Calvary.

Finding the right time or place to use these words are commonly where justice is valued.  Many synonyms of these big words can help to make a difference or a combination of definition can bring those words into the realm of a tiny offering a small offering that lead us into salvation.

Balance what your reading, watching, or waiting to solve.  There are a lot of small words such as hope, faith, or live that have colossal meaning as well.  Good luck clustering a story to shape with these cheer words of joy and trial. James 1 find the joy in trial for the sowing of perseverance.

I find myself looking up he fruits of the spirit through a dictionary, thesaurus, and or many interpreters interesting interpretations and this routine takes me around the world into euphoric perceptions and my own predicted outcomes of theories, faiths, opinions, and changes of time, space, beginnings, and ends aka God's greatness.

Most days I can get to a certain depth of ingredients, information, or research before I'm crawling back to ground zero or something puts me back to the basics and without reservation,  preservation of knowledge, references, and current news of big words such as Sovereign, Messiah, Jehovah, and God are moved by many peoples walks of life into the inevitable united collection of big words as small offerings from all ages.

WISDOM

Proverbs Chapters 1-5, 24,25
James Chapter 4
Gentle soft applications.
When I think of wisdom I think of angels and all things that are unsolved and uncomfortable.   I think of pursuits, researches, and discoveries unfinished or left for a new problem of people to use and give a try to finding out, or seeking out such as a pursuit.

Too much serious too much protection wanted: A Pregancy.

The Hammond air blows in threw the front windows into the face.  There is a night of timely fashionable ironies.  The sounds of lecures without notes.  Goals of hands on after books for years .  The talks and walks follow through the night rains

Too many memories clouding the present.  Memories of aunts and uncles taking over the voices and laughters.  How quick and swift the end remains of measuring space and time again and again for a year or two of tests performed in faith.

I needed to fit in , to blend in with other pregos to feel better that's how severely underrepresented I felt and grasping for more than the books, and professionals latest hype for common sense to complications during, and afterward.

The changes and controls were only one in the same and mother nature took my breathe away.  From heart burn to diabetes gestational diabties oh oh the muffin that was delivered is well done.

All these sayings just don't measure up.  Day after day, nothing was enough to prepare for a baby.

Tennis talker

Early in the morning it is a waking hour of constant drives, gas getting, and clocking in and out.  There isn't anything to talk about except the quiet mornings and the same clean uniform layed out and pressed on the bed.  The shoes neatly kept at the front door, and the run down of tooth brushes near the empty tubes of toothpaste.

Get active is in every encouraging letter or article it seems.  Watch for the dream, and get active carefully constructed in any writing for inspiring others.  Slowly the listening comes, and the poor choices, and the thirst and hunger tangles emotions like strings clinging to yesterdays sticky memories and last weeks memories stench.Sweet cookies, and lots of raw onions help the nothingness of the inevitable price of the ticket bought.

Some pony-tailed young adult with smudged glasses has tennis practice and it is a reminder of a young skate boarder along the city bridges.  Tennis a sport moms dream for her oldest daughter practiced as a kid, along with piano.  Small talks...

Story on Fasting: the lost Art

The lost art of fasting is a practice of mine that
I've found to be very rewarding.  There was a lot of planning that fell over the way domin oes do .  The ability to write about it shoots my nreves into high gear.  The body using up foods for energy are not there during a fast.  The book I read shows motives that cannot be understood.  Yet the values and beliefs of the focused motive for example to build a closer relationship with Christ are magnified during a fast.

AS I made this my goal to fast I could hear my struggles to eat, to go back to the desires that stand in the way.  There is a imperfect world out there.  Through the three to sometimes five days of my fast I can see the calm and joy of what the book on fasting was seriuos about which was being able to hear the small voice of God with clarity.  It came in and went as I grew more excited and my focus become as a microscope to my life and the world I live in while then reaching a view from a telelscope or a whole picture.

There are many things important that I became aware of around me at work, at home, and in a social gathering while fasting.  This lost art some say is still in use today in many countries.  Fasting for me in the US has been a difficult thing to schedule since while on one you must be meditating or praying mostly or totally for the cause or the pleasure and treaure that you succumb to most with become enhanced such as whether it be for a better relationship, more money, a better job, or other things of the world that choke out the purpose of your particular reason to fast.

According the this bbok I have been following since DEcember 2013 each year I have made it for a closer restoring returning relationship with Christ Lord.  This has brought me small results of Bible study fellowships, Christian Rock, confidence in these things that I ordinarily would not take part in coming from a lover of classic rock, and ball game fellowships mostly so to speak.  The awareness from the lost art of fasting I gained was a calm and joyful one as God promised in His Word.

Fasting is a requirement to be taken seriously and I have seen it first hand.  When you are lazy or quitting a fast or in a gray area with it while in it you will find challenges such as sleep deprivation, and or concerns in areas that you may not be ready for example I wasn't ready to fast for God rather I was more focused at times to fast to lose wieght and or get a better job which had me spinning my wheels or chasing the little carrot at the end of the stick so to speak.

So in circles I went for months calmly and joyously yet no change in my life sparked.  As Iwanted to be ready I learned that clearly I wasn't while seeing the hill at the beginning of change being more of a mountain. Yet I stayed my course with much grief picking at my pleasures of being with my partner when clearly the times were not right.  So after mentioning a few examples of my fasting experience, I can end my blog by mentioning that in the book I succumb to for this lost art as it mentions, the way to understanding a fast is to know it works.  How is works is by not being a burden to others, and including others in your prayers.

The book is called Prayers I found in in my parents book shelf the author is Dr. Miles Monroe.

Hallowed be Thy Name

How sweet the sound, as the time of grace is embraced.
Copper town in winter glistened white with snow. 1976, Fran peered into the heart of a savior, a king.  There was a silent auction with treasures from the deep seas. Shells, jewels, and pearls white as snow shining souls.

Fran could stand for any price but these treasures peculiar in their own way were paid for by a person of great faith. Treasures so astounding to touch them alone were to love them!

"Who? And where? What to do?" Fran gathered.

"They were found paid for at the cross on Calvary. Deep in the depths of mans heart these treasures are still waiting to be found by a man from Galilee." Inquired Josh.

" Hallowed be Thy Name." Ruth murmured.

Attitude

Is everything.

 You have to be able to do humble.
No matter what a prideful attitude towards people and God is death.
The scriptures discuss this in all the kings and queens. (You).

Pride before the fall. Read about Belshazzar who was slain after Daniel interpretation of the writing on the wall. King David had an affair with a married woman.  Queen Vashti disobeyed her king and was vanished from Persia. Eve ate from the tree of life disobeying God in the garden of Eden.

Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall. 1 cor10:12 proverbs 24,25 wisdom speaks.  Then go to Job.

rebellious days

F you
F me
Soda pop
Oh its free?
Not productive.
And bingo was his name.

Smelly socks
Salty fries
Sweaty sheets
Wine for nine

Clouds
Frowns
Towns
Lows

stocking

Big boxes taped down with straws, napkins, cups, etc. Baffled me from week to week. Sliding them boxes full of throw away taken for granted stuff showed me the wasteful litter of wrappers flittering in the wind along highways.

All that fast food litter millions of dollars go to the plastic fork! We beg desperate lay for extra napkins or ketchup packets to sooth the pains of life.

gardenview

An underground nook where I tuned into You.
A tunnel of love where rainwater flooded and winters froze us through.
 Garden view o garden view a humbling pad I once knew gone are the plans we once knew of memories of hot baths and wine glasses askew.

Your rooms aroma of lavender vanilla and secret compartments were wicked and askew.

Garden view o garden view
You're flower beds were leveled with my head calling windowsills it was not rain water floods that I dreaded. It was the cold winter nights that kept me in flight to wander the gym along the city streets of the dark laughing night.

apple frtter

Who eats fried dough?
Who frosts cinnamon bread ?
Carnival flavor of sweetly broken grease.
Delicious and a rrelief .

The one and only mother got me eating
Such a thing.  A large apple spiced gel filling in tiny bit pieces to savor the taste of fine sweetness.

ol shoes

Psalms 23

O shepard my Lord whom I dwell I shall not lack!

The house is brand new, the shoes are ancient news.

There is a sound they make Rumbling and shake the floors and walls.

Every step they make a fall my day takes.

Seeping Through

Candid, unnoticed. Spotted out.
Awareness seeping through.
Desparate for rest.
Thirsty for more.
Hungry to be starved.

Watched. Hidden. Discovered.
War for another lover.
Woman.
Man.
Triptofan

PSalms 23

O Shepard most High
Who is neigh
Im letting it all pass me by
Oh Shepard
Whom shall I fear O You who is near.
Whom shall I want, lack, desire.
Walking through memory lane, futures fame
Thy rod and staff comfort me
and all I can say is thank you.

At the table of evil You prepare
onainted oil and my cup runneth o'er
O majesty
O star of wonder
 you alone cause my cup to overflow
O lover of my soul
I'm letting go
O Ancient of days old
My mistakes and imperfection are followed by
mercy and goodness
moment by moment Ill dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever and ever Jesus name amen.

Its O'er

Yummy snot licks.
Frozen doors shut. O nuts.
Ice cold rain that breaks thrones before broken bones.

It's O'er
It's O'er

ripped tidel waves forever

Pridey

Pride is no socks on a cold day.

Smeared

Whip cream
butter
jelly
onions

smeared
smeared

Jesus.
sour cream
peanute butter
grease
oil


Smeared
Smeared

Smelly shoes

Imbalance are smelly shoes.
Forgotten motives are woman with mustaches.
Daughters who become their fathers become queens.

Sit ups

I did one sit up today.

Cracks and Crevaces

Wet nose.
bitten nail.
chipped polish.
hunched back.
hung head.
sullen fed.